abby's world

2008-05-21T01:26:00.000+08:00

2007-03-22T21:54:00.001+08:00

Moved.
Go home.

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2007-03-22T01:52:00.001+08:00

2007-03-21T00:57:00.000+08:00

I went to Genting recently.

We arrived at Genting at about one plus and spent about an hour or two

waiting for our turn to check into the hotel.

It was horrible and painful having to sit on that hard chair and trying

to watch cartoon network on the tv with your head tilted.

We were so bored, we ate this crunchy guava that we bought in Malaysia.

It was really crunchy and juicy and BIG. And we ate till only the core was left.
HAHA. bored and bored.

When we could finally check into the hotel, our butts were hurting.

All of us fell soundly asleep on the bed.

We actually planned to go to the theme park.

But we were so tired we slept till 6pm.

So we went for dinner instead. Yummy I must say.

We decided to go to the Theme park the next day.

We were so hardworking!

We all woke up at 8am to go to the Theme park!

Can you see the people on the roller coaster? They look so terrified. LOL.
We even took the monorail after all the roller coasters.

Look at Mr energizer! He surely lives up to his name.

Haha. That's my friend. Mr kool. He climbed on the tree just to offer me that ice-cream. so sweet right. :)

This is the sky in Genting. nice right? its really beautiful and clear.
I must say God was a real great and amazing creator of the world!

One of the rides that we took was this Pirate Ship. It is new there. Haha.

The queue was amazing.

We also took the train. We were in this tunnel.

This flying dragon was a roller coaster that we wanted to take.
But it started to rain when our turn was about to come.

We were so disappointed. But we decided to pray that the rain will stop!

God never fails us! :)

The rain stopped and we took the ride. Hurray!

We went for karaoke later on that day.

It was really fun I must say.

trying to sing all those fei lun hai songs.

it was really funny. HAHA.

We went for supper after that.

Dad and mum went to buy food.

The cook took so long.

We waited and had nothing to do so..

We took pictures!!

This are all the games that we played that day. The map of the Theme park.

Do i look very thirsty?

After, we went in search to buy FAMOUS AMOS cookies.

OH MY FAVOURTIE.

I want to thank my daddy and mummy for those cookies.

Dont you think I like it very much?

Oh i so love them.

Its really yummy and Im not lying!

see how happy Abby is when she sees them?

All good things always come to an end. So its time to go home!

on the way down the hill, we saw clouds at the bottom of the hill.

which means, we were among the clouds! heh.

yea. see those white cotton? they are actually clouds!

Back to Singapore. face the challenges that life has installed for us

and continue being a warrior of light for Jesus!

2007-03-06T01:37:00.001+08:00

2007-02-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

now i know why people say its good to be young.

you see when you were young, did you know what bad things really are?
its only when you grew up, and through the years that you learnt about it
then did you know what it is. isn't it?
remember the times when you were young,
when you are sad, just some sweets will cheer you up.
when you are angry, you would cheer up again after awhile.
but when you grow older, you learn more.
you think more and so, it gets harder for you to be happy.
the only difference between these people is just the way they look at these things.
somehow I just figured out that by enjoying life, I would be doing myself a great favour.

when your cup is only filled with half a glass of water,
will you think that you have half a empty glass OR
half a glass of water?

I choose the latter. :)

2007-01-26T00:31:00.000+08:00

Did you ever wonder why God didn't
answer your prayers?
Read this and you will understand.
CLICK FOR BIGGER IMAGE
cos the words are really small on my
blog. :)

2007-01-22T01:13:00.001+08:00

you see.
its only at the moment of your life when you feel so down,
and it seems like everything is going wrong,
you will know who your true friends are.
those that are willing to share your joy and pain.

2007-01-20T23:32:00.000+08:00

The clouds are gathering, amidst this stormy weather.
She clung onto her raincoat, and held her umbrella.
With everything prepared, she still got soaked.
So she stood in the rain and took out her coat.
Felt the rain on her skin and looked at the sky,
wondering in her mind when this storm would go by.
She walked on the streets with thoughts in her head.
She runs down the road with tears and pain.
she ran with all her might till she felt it all falling apart.
she then fell onto the floor and stared at the sky.
Raindrops kept dripping into her eyes.

after what seemed so long, the rain began to subside.
then clouds were clearing and a rainbow could be seen.
The sun came out and winked at her.
Then with a smile on her face, she closed her eyes.

2007-01-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! Lets go on a tour!
Oh the sun is too bright!
Stoning.
I love playing with shoes. MY HOBBY!
I am inspired to become a good dog!

Ahh. nice wind. I love this feeling! See how macho I look!
So much for now! see you guys!

2007-01-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

I suddenly thought of grandmama.
she took really good care of me and i mean really.

I used to be a playful kid.
I love it when I had the chance to disturb others.
Its some kind of satsifaction you get when you disturb others and get to run away unpunished.
I know its kinda sadistic but at least I have all these childhood memories. :)
I used to ring people's doorbell and then run away.
Play catching with the boys while waiting for the school bus and having lunch.
Grandma would scold me and ask me to finish up my lunch before playing.
but who cares?
My grandpa loves to smoke.
But i dont like the smell.
So I never really talked much to him.
I made him angry.
And he came chasing me with his walking stick.
I ran out of the house and made funny faces.
And he couldnt hit me but I got scolded by daddy.
But I know he was a nice old man.
Grandmama would always cook for me.
She never failed to defend me.
I remember that although her food wasnt that fantastic and great,
it still made me who I am today!
I was sad when grandmama left.
But I know they are happy there. :)

2007-01-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

some people just have nothing to do that they come to ruin your life.
oh well. its better finding out now then never.
sometimes things just have to happen and we just cant stop it from happening.
rather than being sad and unhappy about it, why not just move on
and forget about it.
It seems so easy to say, but its not the least easy to do it.
I always tell people to smile and be happy.
But now that I have gone through what they went through,
I finally understood the meaning of you wont understand what I
am talking about unless you have been through it.
How can a rich man understand what a poor man is going through
unless he becomes poor?
I think being happy is easy if someone had lots of things to do and
of cos with the company of friends.
Not that my friends dont hang out with me.
BUT I am so free and my gosh.
I always have half the day free after school.
and what do I do?
go home and sleep, start thinking about stuff.
If only I was so busy, I guess I wont even give my mind the time to wonder.

so I have decided to buy a diary for year 2007 and I am going to keep myself busy.
I know shopping for a diary would cause me to be busy for awhile.
HAHAHA. :)

if you dont understand what people are talking about, then dont try and make some
sense out of it because I think they dont even know what they are saying. LOL.

2007-01-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

if any of you have something to say, come and say it in my face.

you will think you are right.
and i will think i am right.
since this is not getting anywhere,
and this thing cant be solved,
i think this shall come to an end.
Im not going to say anything anymore.
if you think you are right then so be it.
i cant be bothered to care anymore.

its stupid.

2007-01-11T15:06:00.000+08:00

i already stopped talking about her what.
im still scolding her? oh really?
why are you asking me if i have scolded enough?
in the first place im not even scolding her.
I want to speak up for my sister what.
is there anything wrong with that?
there is nothing much to say about her anway.
if you dont tell people how you feel how would people know?
so nonsensical.
anyway, i am not playing any game.
please be more fair in your judgement.
if you people dont like what i say, then dont read my blog.
it is as easy as ABC what.

2007-01-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.

the first thing I observe when I meet a guy is if he wears a watch a not.
if you notice, guys seldom wear metal watches these days.
I feel that guys who wear a watch tend to be more playful and romantic.
Also, they are very thoughtful and they take note of small details.
I dont know why but probably im stereotyping.
A guy who wears a watch leaves a deep impression.
I have no idea why.
But i just have this wierd fetish about guys wearing watches.
wierd huh. :)

2007-01-08T22:57:00.000+08:00

You think you are helping your friend.
I rather say that you are causing more trouble.
You think by scolding other people, the guy will return back to your friend?
What will the guy think about your friend?
If you really want to help your friend,
then please stop all your nonsense and
leave my sister alone.
If you dont think you are childish, then please reassess the way you handle the problem.
Your whole group of friends trying to bring a small girl down just shows that you have some problem with yourself.
Your friend and her ex are still friends.
if you dont want to spoil this friendship of theirs
then to put it in a crude way, MYOB.

2007-01-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

No more positive adjectives can be used on you anymore.
look who is the one who has no confidence here.
if you really had the confidence, you would not have needed the support of your friends to come and talk to me.
And if you really believe what you said is true, you wouldnt need to tell your friends and let them hear about the biased side of your story.
I dont have much to talk to you about and I want to make this point clear to you.
This is my blog. I am free to say what I want to say.
If you are not happy about it, so be it. I dont care.
You want me to believe your story but you were not even telling the truth.
You told me that you could be calling anyone a bitch.
But why of all times use that word when my sister came up the bus.
And was there anyone who stepped on your feet in the bus?
why did you have to use that word of all times then?
You told me its just too bad.
Then I shall say now that its also too bad for you that I dont believe you.
Why are you so bothered about what I say about you and her?
The only reason i can think of is that you are attempting to hide the truth.
You tell me that i dont treasure my friendship with her.
But i dont see how much you treat your relationship with her very seriously as well.
Saying that you can break up with her and stuff like that.
The bottomline is that I think you are very childish and that you are very bored.
You could have just left my sister alone but you chose to insult all of us.
This shows that you are just finding something to do because you are too bored.
Please show some respect to yourself and stop using all those vulgarities.
It wont make you look good or cool.

Its fine if you choose your girlfriend over your best friend.
But you had a choice to help your friend.
Did I hit your girl? Did I bully her?
I did none of it.
She was the one who started all this stupid nonsense.
All this while, your girlfriend has been creating trouble and acting like a kid.
Why do you choose to ignore the problem to stay out of trouble?
I thought all the while that it was worth protecting and helping you no matter what.
But after that incident, i beg to differ.

Maybe you had your own difficulties or something.
But under such circumstances, i guess you would rather keep quiet than explain anything to me.

2007-01-05T12:12:00.000+08:00

You think I am a bitch. But is it a fact? You go around shouting it like an uncivilized civilian in public. The worse thing is that you are acting like an immature kid when you are in junior college. Pointing the middle finger won’t cause you to look pretty isn’t it? But you do it like it is your daily routine and point it like it is so natural for you. You think your so called facts are right. You tell my best friend you love her a lot but just LOOK at the way you treat her. I don’t even think you gave her the respect she deserved. Even if she didn’t tell this to me, I can see it for myself that you are really insecure about her love for you. No matter how many times she is going to proclaim it to you, you will never be satisfied. If you love her so much, why do you always have to put her in such a difficult position? You call this love? I think your actions are akin to selfishness. You mean she doesn’t have any right to make friends with me? If you don’t like me, that is your problem. She is my friend. You don’t have to like me because her friendship with me has NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU. If you are not happy with me, come up to me and say it in my face. I will very well take your criticism if it is a fact. Don’t act like a loser and take it out on a small girl who is younger than you in the public. Act like an adult and please grow up. If you don’t like me, I don’t care because there isn’t a need for you to like me. But if you really love her, please stop putting her in a intricate position because it just shows how selfish your so called love is. I am her friend and you can’t alter the fact. If you don’t like us being friends, I have nothing to say. I know that she will choose you over me because she loves you. But as her friend, I will respect her decision and take a step back. Although you were the one who starting hurling insults at others, she didn’t reprimand you. She took sides with you and this just shows that you mean more to her than me. In a relationship, the most important thing is communication and trust. If all these are lacking, it just goes to show how strong your relationship is with each other. And it just shows that you don’t know her very well. I didnt want to make all this comments. You forced me to.

2006-12-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

there are so many kinds of people in this world.
i shouldnt be so gullible.
I will never want to believe people so easily again. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUTHIE!

2006-12-20T23:38:00.000+08:00

you know why it stopped raining today?
BECAUSE IM BACK IN SINGAPORE.
sorry guys. the SUN needs to go on a holiday too!
now miss sunshine is back, it should stop raining.
but no promises! :)

i didnt expect going overseas to be more enjoyable than i thought.
at first i was quite against it.
although it wasnt really as fun as the past,
it beats staying in singapore.
its like all my troubles blown away with the clouds.
now you ask me anything bad,
i would have kinda forgotten about it unless you remind me bout it. HAHA.
maybe if you gave me a choice, i may never want to return till maybe later?
at least when i was there, there was nothing much to worry.
oh wells. :)

life goes on..

2006-12-15T23:43:00.000+08:00

i feel so sad.
i just feel like crying suddenly.
there are too many misunderstandings in this world.
there are too many things happening.
there is just too much that is not within our control.

please bring me to Rome with you. :)

i never regretted making that choice.
because i know it was the only way out.
I never forgot all the tears you cried.
It has always been lingering in my head.
I can never forgive myself and I still blame myself for everything.
I only had your future in mind.
I just didnt want you to regret it.
but why did I choose to be so harsh?
I know i cant make you happy.
I know im always making you upset.
cos im just too overbearing.
perharps you did make me angry and stuff.
that was what made me perservere to make that decision even more.

i just want to let you know that if you turned back time,
i would still have made that same decision.
although it was a tough decision,
and I know both of us will end up getting hurt,
I know its the best way out for you and me.
because no matter how strong you appear from the outside,
and how emotionally stable you appear to be,
I know you yearn for a strong shoulder to lean on.
someone who will make you feel safe, make you feel loved.

I know you will find that right one one day. :)

I dont know what to do to atone for my mistakes.
But I know nothing I do is going to make up for all the emotional stuff you went through.
So i decided the best thing I can do for you as a friend is ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU.
BIG HUG! :)
I LOVE YOU! you know it! :)

2006-12-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

love is not wanting to possess someone.
more like as long as you know the person is happy,
you would be happy too.
if there is jealousy and anger involved,
can it still be considered love?
each of us has our own ways of showing our love.
but some of us just live in self denial thinking its love.
if you want someone whom you love to do something to make you happy,
and you dont spare a thought for that person's feelings,
how can it still be love?

you just want to make yourself happy.
you only care about yourself.
but sometimes, maybe living in a world of self denial is good.

till today, i dont know why it happened.
im afraid to fall into that stupid deep hole again.

2006-12-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

I really need someone to talk to.
I really have alot to say.
I dont know who to go to.
I dont know what to do too.
Everyone makes it seem so easy,
everyone thinks im being the fool.
I dont know who can always be there for me,
and teach me what to do.
I really dont know what to do now
and I dont feel like sharing anything anymore.
cos im so used to being independent
and handling all these alone.
sometimes i wonder, why is my life this way?
time crawls for me like tomoro will never come.
i have too much free time to think.
i need to work my blues away.
i cant take it anymore.
I really cant.
But can i do anything about it?
Do i have a choice?

2006-12-12T19:52:00.000+08:00

ling ling ling ling..... Is Christmas !!!! sent 12/12/2006 5:29 PM:
I SEE HIS HARD WORK AND INTENTIONS. IF YOU U LOOK PRETTIER THAN BEFORE AND U WANT SOME HANDSOME ASS, THEN TELL BEN,
ling ling ling ling..... Is Christmas !!!! sent 12/12/2006 5:29 PM:
WAT A BITCH, I SYMPATHY BEN AFTER SO MUCH HE'S DONE YOU TREAT HIM LIKE DIRT
ling ling ling ling..... Is Christmas !!!! sent 12/12/2006 5:30 PM:
IF U NEED TIME GIVE YOURSLF MORE ROOM TO ACCEPT HIM, THEN GO AHEAD !
ling ling ling ling..... Is Christmas !!!! sent 12/12/2006 5:31 PM:
DON'T BE A SLUT ! ALL HE NEEDS IS MORE TIME TO BE A BETTER PERSON !
ling ling ling ling..... Is Christmas !!!! sent 12/12/2006 5:33 PM:
IF YOU THINK HE'S KIDDING WITH YOU, THEN SERIOUSLY U SHOULD BETTER BE SERIOUS WITH YOUR WORDS
ling ling ling ling..... Is Christmas !!!! sent 12/12/2006 5:33 PM:
*HIS WORDS
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WAKE UP PLS !
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ling ling ling ling..... Is Christmas !!!! sent 12/12/2006 5:37 PM:
IF U THE ACESS TO HIS PASSWORD THEN TELL ME,
ling ling ling ling..... Is Christmas !!!! sent 12/12/2006 5:38 PM:
I WILL BE MORE THAN WILLINGLY TO GIVE IT TO YOU.
ling ling ling ling..... Is Christmas !!!! sent 12/12/2006 5:39 PM:
IS DEFINITELY NOT A PROBLEM, AS A FRIEND I WILL DO ALL I CAN TO PROVE THAT HE'S SINCERE

you think its very fun to insult me?
please teach your friend.
THIS IS SO CHILDISH and its just pissing me off.
FOR YOUR INFO, this is NOT the first time.
your mouth is so dirty.
only know how to scold bitch and slut.
how sad. no originality or creativity. :(

2006-12-09T03:06:00.000+08:00

If only falling in love was as easy as ABC.
why dont we feel the same?

2006-12-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

Have you ever tried waving to random strangers?
Roo, tracy and I did!
Results: 6/10 - shocked
1/10 - cant be bothered
2/10 - afraid to wave back
0.5/10 - spit at us
0.5/10 - waved back
So the conclusion is that there are not many friendly TP people.
But we did have our fun.
There was this guy who was looking at us wave, he walked straight into the bookshelf.
Also, there was someone who spit water at us. (irritating chap)
and one who waved back.
Anyway, it was really funny and fun.

STORY TIME
A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road on a motorcycle...

Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.

Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.

Girl hugs him

Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.

In the paper the next day :( A motorcycle had crashed into a building
because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but only one had
survived.)

The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes
broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she
loved him & felt her hug him one last time, then had her wear his helmet so
that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

2006-12-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

MY KERORO IS GONE.
all of the keroro eps HAS BEEN REMOVED because it has been licensed in the US.
OMG. what am I going to do?
I like to watch it.
My cute little frogs.
GONE cos of some licensing.
SOBS.
I was not even halfway there.
AHHHHH.
KERORO.

2006-12-01T12:23:00.000+08:00

THERE IS SO MUCH STUFF TO DO.
1. PSYCHOLOGY quiz
2. PSYCHOLOGY project
4. PHOTOGRAPHY
6. FORUMS

QUIZ COMING UP
1. PER COMM - i missed it. i overslept. :(
2. PHOTOGRAPHY
3. MMP

MISS NG's journalism lessons are the most entertaining one of all.
with the lustrous sun underneath a pair of pants with its mysterious glow.
this sight would indubitably take anyone’s breath away and cause their jaws to drop.
i cant help it but roll on the floor and laugh with roo.
PLUS. guess what?
she tried reading this paragraph of words.
Cvklhzsdl;fljdsjgjlzsdbl;gvzsdch;dyasicilyteioygatfisd’zgiophaopgdis’
pghsdozfhido;sufgao;sgfuohfuasd;ofuhasd;fhuidah;foasdh;fohdasfhiodah;
fodhias;fioasd;fhiodhasfo;diasfy;iodyioyafo;dioahfo;asdhfo;iadhf;asdi
ofho;asdhfidhaifhadiohvfdioshfasdio;fhodsa;fhduoasgfauiogfasduogfdafh
idoahfiodhas;fnhlsdo.

funny right? she is my favourite teacher. :)
anyway roo is trying to amuse me with her cheeks.
now she is doing it to 2 cheeks.
ROFL. roo says high. you get what i mean-HI.
anyway, lesson has never been so interesting before.
plus i embarassed myself on the bus yesterday and tried hopping away to make myself feel better.
however, it failed quite badly.
the only thing that suceeded is that - its FUNNY. HAHAHA.
grab your chance and laugh whilst stocks last.
BYE ANYWAY! we have more descriptions to do.
maybe the next one would be that pair of yellow pants. :)

2006-11-28T00:24:00.000+08:00

THERE IS SO MUCH STUFF TO DO.
1. PSYCHOLOGY quiz
2. PSYCHOLOGY project
3. PER COMM journals
4. PHOTOGRAPHY
5. JOURNALISM article
6. FORUMS

QUIZ COMING UP
1. PER COMM
2. PHOTOGRAPHY
3. MMP

i need to study too. can anyone just shoot me.
i need to watch my cartoons too.
i wont say im very free and im very bored anymore.
=(

IM SO DESPERATE I HAVE NOWONE TO TALK TO
so i talk to myself online.
IM GOING TO GO CRAZY.
what i written in the forum has gone missing.
AHH. so sad.
now i must write again!
all my effort DOWN THE DRAIN!
i have done it again.
BUt its just so sad.
i just realised how pathethic one can be.
THIS IS THE WORST TIME OF MY LIFE.
I NEED A LIFE SERIOUSLY.
I CANT BELIEVE IM LIVING SUCH A LIFE.
SO VEXING.
im just wasting every min every sec.
knock me.
im going to break down and cry, pull my hair.
dont ask me if im ok.
im just ranting at my blog.
IM OK NOW. lalala.

2006-11-25T21:51:00.000+08:00

when i was young, I didnt understand why people had to make themselves so upset over money.
I thought I wouldnt face the same problem.
but now, things happened likewise.
Photography assignments are costing me a bomb.
I have been asking my mum to develop the films and she has been paying them for me.
she isnt very happy bout it.
And this is not the first time this has happened.
i tried my best to pay everything I could pay.
Why is it that we always quarrel over money?
its not that i dont want to pay her or anything.
I just dont have money to pay her now.
Morever, im not supposed to touch my savings.
seriously, I have no idea what to do.
I hate photography now.
and I hate to borrow money too.
maybe its my turn to be a workaholic.

2006-11-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

I feel like kicking myself.
friends. how many of them will stay by you for life?
how is it possible for a friendship to last so long?
what is lasting forever?
I feel so damn trapped now.
I just got to brace myself up for the worst.
Mickey will be history one day too.
cant expect mickey to be that friendly forever right.
now we are working today, of cos its a different story.
but when its all over, all of us will get back to our own life.
and forget about each other till maybe we meet on the streets one day?
or maybe never?
how depressing. :)

abby thinks too much sometimes.
thats how she hurts herself and make herself happy for almost nothing.
its really sad.

2006-11-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

Somehow i just dont have a good feeling about this.
its really really bad.
but I cant do anything anyway.
thats the worse feeling anyone can feel.
WHAT SHOULD I DO?? :(

i spent my day chasing butterflies and bees.
I HATE INSECTS and CREEPY CRAWLIES.
but i just went close to it just to finish my work.
if the photos are blur, i will probably knock my head against the wall.
its so tiring and i was almost fried under the sun.
the sun was so scorching 2 cups of water wasnt enough for me.
photography is not as easy as it seem especially when it comes to film.
aiyah. I dont know why im feeling so angry for nothing.
or maybe upset?
maybe I should stop thinking so much.
its stupid.
ARGHHHHH
i want to knock my head soon.
ANYWAY, cameras are hard to get.
really hard. It can cause you to shoot yourself one day perhaps.

get well soon :)

its so dead in here.=)

2006-11-21T01:07:00.000+08:00

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.
its a vicious cycle.

2006-11-12T02:13:00.000+08:00

kids.
running around. laughing and amusing themselves with almost nothing.
They seem as if they are so happy.
Even a small lil thing like finding their packet of biscuits could put a smile on their face.
How good would it be to be like lil kids.
This lil kids who dont know much, laugh at almost anything.
They kiss the floor, do somersaults.
Run around, bend over to look at stuff.
They just laugh at anything.
They cry when they fall. But its so easy to make them smile.
Biscuits, sweets or a hug would simply do the trick.
When you are at my age, when you get hurt, its not as easy as taking out a lolli to make them smile.
Sometimes i think i just fuss too much over stuff because I have learnt too much.
The more you learn, the more you think bout life.
Innocence and pureness is seriously a good thing to have.
Sometimes not knowing things are also considered a bliss.
I totally agree with this sentence.
I just want to be like a lil kid again..

2006-11-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

what is real seems unreal.
what is not real seems real.
how to tell between the two?
everything is so screwed up now i just feel like stopping.
what do you all want?
why dont you just say it out directly in my face.
rather than showing me this and that,
and having me to guess my way through.
I cant think anymore.
much less care.
i just dont feel the same anymore.

i will always remember that the time when i needed you most was the time you chose to left me on my own.

2006-11-09T00:59:00.000+08:00

dreams are a form of escaping from reality.
Only then can I know what I want to know.
Feel what I want to feel.
it makes me feel like sleeping forever.
because reality can sometimes be too cruel.

2006-11-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

Behind every life, comes a very interesting story.
some sad, some happy, some forgettable, some heart-wrenching and the list goes on.
others try to find a way out to live happily.
some struggle to put it down to carry on.
many different ways you will find along the way actually.

So once upon a time there was this girl.
She was a quiet and gentle child.
She grew up and became loud but still gentle. :)
She always thought to herself how her life would be.
And she always believed in her heart that one day she will live happily ever after.
As she learns each day and sees the world,
her perception of happily ever after slowly changes.
Then she starts wondering how do people fall in love.
What is love in the first place?
Walking down the road with questions wondering in her head.
all the why where who how when.
not being able to answer the questions in her head.
she thought to herself.
something that was so simple became so complicated suddenly.
in a moment, all that she thought she was, was actually not what she is.
but maybe this way, life would be better.
anyway, saying is easier than done.
talk is free. really.
Whatever it is, no one will ever understand.
because it is something so wierd, you just cant explain it.
As much as she wants to, she just cant.
So happily ever after just vanished into thin air through her years in life.

At this point of time, you people might think she is mad.
She should just ask. Why torture herself this way.
But the stupid thing is, can she even ask?
IT CANT EVEN BE EXPLAINED.

and if you really want to know the girl, its me. :)

2006-11-05T01:08:00.000+08:00

this elearning thing really is showing me how good my english is.
life feels so wierd now.
just feel as if i have become another person.
i cant continue smiling for now.
its so stupid.
i feel like covering my face and running to a place far far away.
OH!!! WHATEVER HAPPENED TO MY SO INTERESTING LIFE.

2006-11-03T02:06:00.000+08:00

a 17 year old teen acting like a primary school kid.
I have always respected her for the sake of my friend.
But i think she has really gone too far this time.
I lost all the respect I had for her.
I dont understand why she has to stoop to such a level.
Now i know how high her intelligence level is.
forcing people to do things against their will.
asking stupid questions that we asked when we were in primary school.
I will never say anything good about her again.
Cos now i have learnt what a human being she is.
is she even one?
I still cant believe it.
Her face and size just doesnt match her intelligence level.
i wonder how she will survive in this world.

2006-11-01T23:05:00.000+08:00

life's momentum is going so slowly.
i feel like an old woman waiting for her time to come.
there's just so much i want to say.
but i end up swallowing it all.
its so hard to please everyone i feel like just pleasing myself.
but i dont even know how to please myself.

2006-10-23T23:35:00.000+08:00

READ THIS EXTRACT quoted from the ST Life!

Also, I'd like to point out that, over the years,
i've met girls who are happier to play the field than settle down,
causing their share of heartbreak to their male partners as well.
So it's not a guy thing.
to all the girls out there who are tearing their hair out over a man,
could I just ask for a bit of patience?
Give up the notion of a fairy tale ending.
If it's not meant to be, making excuses for us, clinging to us and hassling us will not make us a prince charming to your Cinderella.

why do man like to talk about woman in such a manner?
First about soccer, now about commitment.
man and woman both make mistakes.
so whats the argument about?
girls are always the one at fault.
SO YOU GUYS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT LA.
HAPPY? (-_-)"'

2006-10-16T15:20:00.000+08:00

for a moment, it seemed like everything was failing her.
it just kept coming like it would never be enough.
apparently, it was just too much for her.
its the beggining of a new chapter? she questioned.

2006-10-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

too much to the dark side of life that has yet to be seen.

2006-10-06T22:51:00.000+08:00

how will you feel when you always find yourself being betrayed again and again.
one by one by the people that you love.
you know, the feeling is "not" that torturing actually.
I just hope that they will throw it to me all at once.
dont torture me slowly and painfully.
I just relieved my childhood memories.
experiencing what I experienced when I was a kid.
I was only so young then.
but I could remember clearly everything that happened.
tell me now, which man can be trusted?
they just have something inside them that makes detestable at times.
I just wonder why they cant put their pride aside.
What do they care about?
face? money? what they like? themselves?
they really do have a serious problem.
Gentlemans are hard to find now.
hard = really really really hard
if you ever find a gentleman,
he might probably be the only good guy out of a thousand guys.
im stressing.
NOT ALL GUYS ARE LIKE THAT BUT THE FACT THAT ALMOST ALL THE GUYS ARE LIKE THAT is as good as you know.
Its really hard to find a good guy this days.
I dont mean to put you guys down like that.
But I really cant help it anymore.

sorry guys, but you crossed the limit AGAIN and AGAIN.

2006-10-03T00:05:00.001+08:00

Im just feeling totally the same way like how my friend feels.
you know.
make mistakes, forgive, make mistakes again.
after everything has happened,
I cant help it but question myself if there would be a friend who would be that kind to you.
I mean after everything that has happened and stuff,
the person would hate you to I dont know what extent
and obviously like why should I be so nice to you?
now I cant help but question if anyone in this world can really be trusted.
all of us only care for ourselves.
it is human nature to defend yourself first.
chilhood lovers and friends forever only lasts in dramas i believe.
the feeling of being betrayed and used.
thinking about it further would only cause me to go mad.
maybe a perfect life doesnt exist.
because we are too smart and we are so good in creating the non-perfect life now.
it just makes me wonder if it pays to be kind.

like some woman who has nothing better to do than to get paranoid for nothing.
when they do get paranoid over the matter, they would still deny such a thing.
telling you stuff that makes them SOUND so great and they are like SAINTS.
putting you down like you are some arrogant and unsympathethic woman.
behaving sometimes like a kid when she is probably a well grown woman.
as if she has nothing better to do than to suspect this and that.
if you dont trust a person, what more is there to a friendship?
then why dont both of you just be acquaintances?
why do you want to go through so much together?
doesnt even make sense at all.
you dont even appear to be like what you say you are.

2006-09-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

I have been feeding a really hungry thing recently.
it just practically gets hungry.
feels full quickly
so you gotta empty it.
then it gets hungry
and you have to feed it again.
what a hassle right?

2006-09-29T23:35:00.000+08:00

I have been one of the lucky winners!
if only this was a lucky draw. LOL.
I shall do this for my LITTLE roo. :)

Do the following
2) Choose 5 UNLUCKY people to do this after you've completed yours
3) Leave a tag on their tagboard to let them know

-Favourite colour: PINK and orange
-Favourite food: I cant live without food so I dont have a favourite one.

-Favourite movie: CARTOONS and comedies!
-Favourite sport: aha. its got to be SWIMMING!

-Favourite day of the week: Friday.
-Favourite ice-cream: no nuts and raisins.

-Favourite TV shows: cartoons and korean dramas
-Current mood: bored.

-Current taste: (-_-)?
-Current clothes: shirt and shorts

-Current desktop: HP
-Current toenail colour: blue

-Current time: 11:35PM
-Current annoyance: feeling peaceful
-Current thoughts: when will this end and what is the next question
-First best friend: yozzie pozzie

-First crush: some little boy
-First movie: like i can remember. should be CARTOONS
-First lie: haha.
-First music: my mum singing me to sleep?
-Last cigarette: I HATE THE SMOKE
-Last drink: months ago

-Last car ride: taxi home?
-Last crush: I wish I could just literally crush them underneath my feet.
-Last phone call: mum
-Last CD played: Passage

-Have you ever dated one of your best friends: :)
-Have you ever broken the law: NO. how bout school rules?
-Have you ever been arrested: No.
-Have you ever skinny dipped: No.
-Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: only when the moon turns blue
-Have you ever loved and lost somebody: why not

-Taken or crushing? not taken, not crushing.
-Are you happy with your life now? Cant be more happy.
-When you meet the right person,do you fall in love with him/her fast? I dont know.
-Have you ever had your heart broken? yes.
-Do you believe that there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable? NO. Its so unloyal.

-Would you take someone back if he cheats on you? NO. maybe in his dreams
-Have you ever talked about marriage with another before? yes. or life would be a bore.
-Do you want children? when the time comes you will know.
-How many? read the above. :)

-Would you ever consider adoption? I dont know. yes/no?
-Maybe...if someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings? give them chocolates to eat.

-Do you enjoy getting into relationship? not that i know of
-Do you believe in love at first sight? No.
-Are you romantic? I am so ROMANTIC. :)

-Do you believe you can change someone? Not anymore. Results are devastating.
-If you could get married somewhere,where would it be? Rome?
-Do you give in easily when you are fighting? depends on the situation
-Do you have feelings for someone right now? NO
-Have you ever wish that you could have someone but u messed it up? NO

-Have you ever broken a heart? i dont think so.
-If one day your best friend falls in love with the person you are deeply in love with, what will you do? Shall see bout it. LOL. Maybe we will pull each other's hair and start scratching one another. HA. im just joking.
-Are you missing someone now? Wong Bin

5 LUCKY PPLE:
i dont know leh.
Just do it if you see it.
cos' its so fun.
you cant stop.
haha.
i can only think of 5 lines.

2006-09-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

im not going through emotions
not just like any other girl.
:)

2006-09-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
The promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

Hand me a world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

tell me what do you live for?

2006-09-25T22:12:00.000+08:00

GIVE IT UP TO OUR NEW SINGAPORE IDOL!!
HADY MIRZA! :)
rucleyt does exist in this world.
i no longer believe in what i used to believe.

wake me up when september ends.

2006-09-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

why me? why?

2006-09-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

im tired of thinking.
perharps you would like to enlighten me?

2006-09-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

dont you see the irony in life?
when you are studying, you hope to go out to work.
when you are working, you hope to go back and study.

im so tired.
my throat is killing me.
how i wish i had never started. :(

i m i s s you_

2006-09-16T00:19:00.000+08:00

the river is forming.
with the wind blowing,
this storm seems to be ongoing.
bridges are breaking.
boats are sinking.
people are drowning.
but there is no one helping.
like it has never eaten before,
its salvaging with all its might.
everything was gone overnight.

2006-09-13T23:31:00.000+08:00

the stillness of the air.
and imaginery eyes staring at me.
my heart skipped like mad
and my fingers trembled
everything seemed out of my control.
i felt as if i couldn't breathe
and i was going to die any moment.

it seems so natural for some
yet so scary for another.
i wish my skin was REALLY thick for once.
i wish that was part of my talent.
performing naturally.
if only i could forget that i am performing.
and relax.
its just a feeling that is hard to describe.
a feeling that is hard for you to understand.
i really wish i could just kick this habit away.
but it just wont go.
7 years of it and im still not immuned.
it makes me really wonder.
am i a human?! GOSH.

2006-09-13T00:41:00.000+08:00

what should i do about it.
i feel so helpless.
there is nothing i can do anyway.
i never know what you are thinking.
i wonder whats been happening this few days.
is everything looking fine when it isnt?
how do i ever know if everything is so quiet.
how i wish i could read your mind.
i really really do missyou.
can anyone just tell me why?
what is happening?
no one knows. really.

2006-09-08T03:18:00.000+08:00

when you see a problem, do you just ignore it or solve it?
when you finally decide to solve the problem,
is it too late already? or is it even possible?
im so tired of thinking.
its just so hard to believe when you cant see what is there to believe about.
this is really really incredible.
i really am at a loss at what to do.
i have no mood for anything.
really. the blues are just coming over me.
its just one after the other.
human have such complicating minds.
why is everything done to such exteme?
cant people do it in moderation?
i just can never get what i want.
seriously im going to go crazy one day trying to figure out things i cant figure.
and you just stay away from me.
dont ask me whats wrong with me.
cos i dont know either.
its just a heart cant control the mind while the mind cant control the heart thing.

when you realise it, the sun has alreasy risen. and the clouds will be gone.

2006-09-06T23:23:00.000+08:00

"HAVE YOU EVER? " - brandy
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
and all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand
how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

you make it seem so easy to understand but its not even near to easy.

2006-09-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

have many people asked this question?
what is life about?
i have been thinking about it for days.
life - growing up, learning, making life difficult for yourself and dying eventually.
sometimes i wonder if it would be better if i had not known so much.
or would it be better if my IQ was like so HIGH.
why cant people just live their lives the simplest way?
why must they complicate their lives with so much intelligence?
why know so much?
the more you know, the more choices you must make.
and thinking you always make the right choice,
you always find out that you have screwed up your life.
and if you didnt know so much and didnt do anything,
probably life would still go on like normal.
how do people keep the smiles on their face?
oh and do you realise?
when you are a kid, you used to laugh alot.
when you are growing into adulthood, you will gradually laugh less.
not that there is nothing to laugh about.
but do you even have time to laugh?
LOL. then why dont u ask me why i think so much about life?
maybe you would be so outraged by the untrue facts that i have just written.
so back to my point.
wouldnt it be great if i had not known so much?
i wouldnt have so much to say then.

why is it so hard?

2006-09-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

i wonder what i should do during the holidays.
its so boring to have to stay at home everyday.
hmm. life is such a challenge.
when you are busy, you complain.
when you are free, you tend to complain too.
so what is the best thing in life?
dont be busy or free.
so you dont have to complain anymore.
its so hard to sleep.
i dont know whats wrong with me.
getting all active at night.
turning around in bed and kicking my bolster when everyone is so soundly asleep.
i wake up and look at everyone around me.
then a thought came to my head.
if only i could be as soundly asleep as them. :)

2006-09-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

you just didnt know how much it hurt when you said those words.
you really proved your point.

2006-08-31T00:06:00.000+08:00

okay la. dont laugh at my hair already.
i cut my hair cos i was depressed.
if you are laughing at me, then its depressed + more depression.
oh well. but if you cant help laughing,
then never mind la.
my hair can bring people happiness.
not too bad anyway.
its been days since i can blog.
been busy studying.
last minute trying to call GOD for help.
LOL. if i pass, its really by his grace man.
sigh. im so confused with my life.
i need to do something to myself.
i feel so wierd and i dont know what.
i think i am mad.
i have the wierdest dreams in the world at night.
hmm. i wonder what i should do.
today it rained like no one's business.
i got as wet as a duck.
i probably looked so pathethic in the rain that some man sheltered me with his umbrella.
he is quite old. he is just being helpful.
oh well. or maybe i just looked too helpless in the never ending rain.
i know. im not stupid ok.
i was just trying to rush for my lesson cos i was afraid my teacher would scold me.
she would be like exams are coming. please be more serious.
ahh. really hate it.
i better pass my exams.
see. stress never goes away.
*@^$*(%^#$(#&*#
piano lessons really get on my nerves.
AHH. my life is getting madder each day.
ok just ignore me.
im just trying to rant here cos i have nowhere else to rant at.
not talking to my bears cos i will look stupid.
dont worry. im fine. im a strong girl!
oh if you are feeling sad right, dont be sad ok.
cos the sun is always shining. :)

am i being sensitive or is it you?

2006-08-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

IM GONNA TALK BOUT MY HAIR.
ARE YOU INTERESTED TO KNOW?
IF YOU ARE NOT, THEN STOP READING.
COS FROM NOW, ITS GOING TO BE ABOUT MY HAIR.
AND
MORE ABOUT MY HAIR. :)

ahh. i dont know whats with me and cutting my own hair.
i was trying my BEST to concentrate on studying today.
I dont know why in the hell did i go and take a scissors out.
I STARTED CUTTING MY OWN HAIR.
i always do that.
i dont know whats wrong with me.
when i feel stressed, i just love doing that.
despite having so many bad experiences,
i still DONT learn my lesson.
then after cutting my own hair,
i will start to regret.
but of cos, its too late!
then i would stand there and wish that time would turn back.
ahh. how lame can i get.
I REALLY NEED TO DO SOMETHING TO THE SCISSORS.
I KNOW!!!
im going to paste notes on that pair of scissors.
LIKE GET YOUR HANDS OFF THIS PAIR OF SCISSORS.
ISNT MANY BAD EXPERIENCES BAD ENOUGH FOR YOU?!
YOU STILL WANT MORE?!
HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN YOUR PAST EXPERIENCE.
and maybe another note.
HAVE YOU THOUGHT CAREFULLY?!
THERE IS NO MORE TURNING BACK.
YOUR HAIR IS GOING TO BE GONE.
AND YOU WILL LOOK LIKE A DUCK.
haha. ok i hope it works.
i hate it when i cut my hair and regret later.
its a stupid feeling. :(

2006-08-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

so im here to APPRECIATE my best friend.
whom i had known for MANY MANY years.
who never fails to make me angry at times.
and never fail to TRY TO BE FIERCE to me.
and im the only one who recieves such good quailty service from her.
NOTE THAT IM THE ONE AND ONLY.
how honoured I can be right.
im going to get smacked by her for writing all those above.
of cos you have all the unique quailities in you that makes you so special to me right?
all the deep dark secrets that we have.
the experience that we share in school.
no one can ever share the same experience that we went through
ok la. their experience with you will come up with only two possiblities.
one. is that their experience with you is better.
or two, worse.
HAHA. what else can it be?
thanks for pissing me off always.
really there is no one that can do this better than you do.
and thanks for always ALMOST being there for me.
i know you have a short attention span
and love to be around people - tall, short or irritating.
you will always be the one around SINGING the loudest.
and getting stares from all over the hall.
always being late for school and to add on,
being the sexiest one in class.
and always coming up with the silliest thing that makes me want to laugh.
like dancing around with a mop.
and using the belt as your mike.
OH GOODNESS. its so funny.
there's just never ending stuff to say bout you.
and if they ever award the MOST ATTRACTIVE student prize,
you will be the one to recieve the first prize.
considering that even a teacher could fail to resist your charm.
who else can irritate people like you do?
and who can be like you?
always doing the opposite from others.
with you around, there will always be laughter.
and never ending HAOLIANing. (LOL. in a funny way though.)
everyone is your friend and its hard to irritate you.
though you are good at irritating others.
everyone feels your love.
just that its either they feel more or less.
and i know you treat every one of your friends oh so equally.
except for the one you love who will have the edge above all else.
like so many people envy the one you love and wished that they could be the one.
and the person you love is so in danger
cos they never know when they will get stabbed by your never ending fans.
i know you hate having to choose if you should jump into the river to save who.
so you rather kill yourself then have to make such a decision.
i will never ever have a friend like you.
who brought laughter and also sadness to my life.
which makes it SO complete.
so all the hurdles that we have to go through
have already been thrown right in your face.
i wonder whats more to come.
but no matter what is going to happen,
like how angry i was with you and how angry you were with me,
the friendship that we shared will forever be kept in my heart.
and you - the girl who taught me that there is more to life. :)

2006-08-20T02:12:00.000+08:00

if you keep calling me a bitch,
i dont understand why you keep trying to get me back.
it doesnt make a single sense at all.
you are so contradicting that you dont even know you are starting to insult yourself.
it just shows your level of intelligence.
so one time after another,
you keep hurling insults at me.
BUT dont forget that every insult that you hurl at me,
you are doing it back TWICE to yourself.
so before you want to insult me further,
maybe you should think and consider carefully.
before your intelligence level falls further.

sometimes at the time when i was most desperate,
like I was practically bursting into tears,
and i know that no other human can apprehend my feelings,
i find myself crying out desperately to GOD.
though i prayed, i find myself still doubting him.
thing is, he still answered my prayer.
how faithful can he be to someone like me. :)

2006-08-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

okay. so what if the world crumbles?
and you dont get to eat carrots anymore?
life still has to go on right?
like who cares?

time changes everything.
its the world's most vicious killer.
it kills silently and before you know it, its TOO late.

2006-08-16T01:42:00.000+08:00

i hate it when my eyes swell.
of all places my eyes.
it hurts like i dont know what.
and its swollen. its red.
like OUCH.
i wanted to go to school actually considering that i would be HORRIBLY bored at home.
but later i was convinced to stay at home and rest.
and rot like never before.
im not supposed to watch tv, use the com.
so sleep is all i have to do.
so when i close my eyes, i dream of wierd stuff.
and my eyes keep tearing.
so i went to watch tv.
play computer. HAHA.
i cant be bothered anymore.
i dont know whats wrong with doctors nowdays.
they are so inefficient.
the medicine doesnt really work.
ahh wonder whats going to work.

GOD PLEASE HEAL MY EYES!!
LET MY EYES FUNCTION LIKE NORMAL AGAIN.
TAKE AWAY THE SORE.
THANK YOU GOD! AMEN! :)
prayer works better than anything else. winks!

2006-08-14T20:23:00.000+08:00

I walked as far as my legs could carry me.
then i realised that i will come back to the same point again.
maybe i should stop walking away.
maybe its time for me to learn.
sometimes I just wonder what I should do.
it seems like nothing i do is right.
In the past, she was tired of having to come after me.
the thing that changes is only the person.
sometimes i know i just got to be strong.
thing is, im just angry with myself.
i dont know how to do anything right.
i can just try to keep it all and be fine.
but at the end of the day, i will realise that things are just not as simple as it is.
like one is enough for you.
but many more keep coming to you.
and it all piles up.
and never goes down.
and i think im just too sensitive a person.
i think alot and have the wildest imagination.
so i just cant control myself.
i dont know why.
as much as i want to. i just cant.
but whatever.

2006-08-12T00:03:00.000+08:00

the lousy feeling is sinking inside me again.
i dont know why but no matter what i tell myself,
its of no use.
cos the fact is always right in my face.
no matter what i do,
its just the same thing all over again.
back to square one.
im just not good at it.

fireworks are great.
watching it with friends are even better.
its really amazing how they spread in the sky
and the sounds that they make.
it ended with a finale that was GRAND.
everyone clapped and cheered.
so i dont have to tell you how good it was right.
LOL. its so great to see you guys again! :)

train rides become so long and draggy without you*.

2006-08-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

thanks for making my day.
although it was bad enough in the morning,
thanks for the night.
its really really enjoyable.
BIG HUG!
i really really love the angel.
not as much as you* though. :)

THANKS FOR ALL YOUR WISHES AND MESSAGES!
MAY ALL OF YOU HAVE A NICE DAY TOO.

2006-08-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

its been a busy busy week.
really really busy.
HAHA.
so many assignments to complete.
like about 3 right?!
all in one week.
rush here and there.
no time for this and that.
seriously tiring.
even if i feel tired, i just got to fight on and finish it.
cos' its just my job.
i will feel bad not doing anything.
like i deserve a zero or something.
at least now i feel better that i did do something.
anyway i believe im not the only one who is stressed.
everyone has the same amount of work to do.
if others can take it i should be able to do it too what!!
ahh. now that everything is completed, i feel so much better!
ITS LIKE A LOAD OF MY MIND.
now on to GDF.
just one more advertorial and poster to go.
seriously i have no more ideas on what to do.
my brain has no more juices to provoke my thinking.
life is really. i dont know.
its just good to take things one step at a time.
after this week, i have learnt lots of things.
sometimes things are not as bad as i make it out to be.
cos i know GOD will provide me with the strength to do everything.
WITH CHRIST ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.
HAHA. if i run into any problems in future, i will just shout to the LORD.
ahh. thank GOD everything is over now.

i simply adore you - like totally.

2006-07-31T00:42:00.000+08:00

DPRESSING MOMENTS
CAN ANYONE JUST KILL ME!!!!!
AHHH. EVERYTHING IS SO INCOMPLETE!
I WANT TO SLEEP SO MUCH
IM SO TIRED.
YAWN YAWN YAWN.
i feel like im seeing stars!
and to make things "better",
THINGS ARE NOT SENT PROPERLY..
NOT DONE PROPERLY.
SO I GOT TO DO IT NOW.
OH MAN.
WHAT A SAD LIFE I LEAD.
at least i have great group members to work with.
their work is perfect so i dont have to edit
AND they are so encouraging. =)
ahh. its bad to do work at night.
nobody can help you. :(

2006-07-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

if the world was just you and me.
at the beautful house by the sea.
freed from the world's ugliness.
and if there was no pain, no sadness, no anger, no sin.
with days only learning more about you.
wouldnt it be sucha wonderful thing to do?

theres alot to be done.
suddenly when you realise it, you have to hurry finish it.
AND the teacher is so fierce.
just scares me so much.
it was a wrong move to even talk to her.
but who wants such things to happen.
oh wells. if only i could fortell things.
everything in life would be so simple.
for now i have to use my ability since i dont have such technology.

i need so many clothes.
my mum's shirt is too short for me.
her skirt is too big for me.
her jacket is too huge for me.
her shoes are too high for me.
oh no. what should i do?
AHHHH. i've got a budget. SO HOW?
cut cloth? wear school uniform? HAHA.

2006-07-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

sometimes if only i could be as aloof as can be.
sometimes if only the world was just about you and me.
then i will never run out of reasons to smile.

i feel tired.
physically.mentally.
you name it.
so caught up in my world of tears.
its time to give up.
sometimes its good to be bad.
cos, im not the kind that has brains for bad stuff.
so yea.
i will just happily admit defeat.
and take a step back.

when the clouds clear, the sun starts shining again.
And even if i lose my ability to shine,
i know you will always be there to make me shine.
so one day, rainbows will appear too. :)

2006-07-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

AIYAH. SO AGITATED.
no freedom of speech.
going to burst one day.
i will go mad.
keeping everything inside.

2006-07-22T15:00:00.000+08:00

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?
Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?
Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:
I love you, Sorry and help me ?
Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?
Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?
Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?
Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?
Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?
Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?
Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.
But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself, if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned, and you know that you can help, you'll see that it will be returned in two-fold.

2006-07-21T00:30:00.000+08:00

ironically, life is an irony.
and i know what keeps the smile on my face. - you* :)

so you may wonder.
why is the sky so blue.
and why is the grass green.
then why cant your face be PINK?
or why cant apples be orange?
and orange be white?
but then if the world was all in a different colour,
will you see the world as a better place?
or wont u find things wierd?
like will u eat an orange apple?
or look at the sky that is not blue?
sit on the grass that is not green?
isnt it like life being an irony?
if the colours in your life get messed up,
will you go crazy and retreat?
or explore and try to find the beauty in it?
so talking about irony
you will understand later if you are not confused by me.
we dont treasure what we have in this world sometimes.
like we complain about the grass being green which is an eyesore.
oh dont be surprised that some people dont like green grass.
so if grass changes to red, wont your eyes get sore?
then you will start missing the calming green grass.
so isnt it an irony that we have to learn things the hard way?
oh yea. and you know what makes you see the beauty of the world?
the beauty of things in life and everything?
to me, i think LOVE teaches us a lot.
LOVE covers the flaws of everything. aint i right?
it teaches you how to look at things from a postive point of view.
oh yes. and it teaches you to treasure what you have.
LOVE is indeed such a wonderful thing right?.
like the rainbow that has all the colours.
and the yellow bright stars shining in the sky! =)

2006-07-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

LIFE IS A LONG ROAD.
along the way, there are many crossroads.
decisions to be made, things to be done.
After choosing the road you want to take,
you either get lost or be on track.
Walk straight and never find a short cut.
Be adventurous and save on energy.
sometimes being flexible is a good thing.
Better than walking straight always,
as well just try out something new right?

people come to you only when they need you.
their motive is clearly isnt it?
Why is it everytime you only get to clear up the mess?
when its celebration time, like who cares about you?
who cares about what you have done.?
all they do is criticise you.
talk about you.
tell tales about you.
so why do you even still want to care about such people?
they think that people think highly of themselves.
actually, they never ever stopped to take a look at their own lives.
the reason why they are so sensitive - no sense of security.
in actual fact, the one who is shameless is they themselves.
they think that you are being thick skinned - just cos' you think you are great.
the fact - you are actually great.
they are just trying to find an excuse to cover up your greatness.
they just feel threatened by you!
oh and if there was any awards for the best deceptive actor/actress,
they would surely win it. NO DOUBT ABOUT IT.
so till now its still going on.
what are you going to do about it?
ignore it.? yes.
easier said than done. aint it?

2006-07-16T23:12:00.000+08:00

do you feel sick of being lied to?
feel stupid to feel so lousy?
feel like why should that person bring you down?
like what that person means to you?!
why do i even care so much?
why get so worried for?
its just going round and round.
then its back to square one again.
being made a fool of.
yeaa. i dont even know why.
i still care so much.
maybe its time to stop.
its always been me trying to make you happy.
now. i will just be happy regardless of WHATEVER.

like what you* always tell me.
SMILE. yea i will. :)

being caught in a similar situation is what me and friend are going thru now.
its surprising that we are actually going thru similar situations.
HAHAHA. i didnt even thought i would say it out actually.
oh man. im glad i said it.
LOL. being caught in a sticky situtation now.
i really am at a loss at what to do.
how does a leader lead when she isn't even sure what she wants?
oh. i had so much to say.
but my mind is in blank now.
or should i say my mind is just filled with thoughts of you*.
HAHA.
dont laugh at me.
its just NORMAL of me. OH WELLS.

2006-07-16T02:11:00.000+08:00

7 random facts about Me

NO DURIANS.
pink is such a sweet colour.
i paint my toenails and put stars on them.
with me theres always laughter and craziness in the air.
i like to go out with my friends and go mad and laugh like no one's business after a meal and all of us will just feel like throwing up and everyone will look at how sane we looked.
i like to eat good food.
i am such a friendly kid.

7 things that scares me

creepy crawlies - cockroach and lizards and the ones that flies.
STUPID SCARY FACES THAT SERVES TO ONLY SCARE.
losing my loved ones.
being the only one left in this world.
dark places that have no lights.
assignments.
conflicts

7 random music at the moment

Yellow
stickwitu
she's no you
where'd you go
hips dont lie
somewhere only we know
dont miss your water

7 things I like most

you*
LAUGHTERS
FRIENDS!
surprises
food
music
FUN

7 things I say most

oh my
cant stand it
cant take it
cant help it
its so me
STOP IT
LOL.

7 people to do this

i cant think.
just DO IT.
if you read.
THEN DO.
JOIN IN THE FUN OK.
HAHAHA.
:)

2006-07-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt so lost?
like you are so useless?
AIYAH. im so bad.
i dont know whats wrong with me.
its so tiring to do so much.
i dont know why.
WHY?!
things can never fit perfectly.
its so wierd actually.
people can never understand how you feel.
i dont think i will understand what people are thinking too.
maybe i just shouldnt try so hard.
its useless anyway.
no one cares how much effort you put in.
time really flies.
when you suddenly realise anything,
you will just realise everything is over.
okay. i will just face up to it.
life is just like this.
i think i will just give up.
its time to take a step back.

everyday is sweet with you. :)

2006-07-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

dont have to worry about anything.
even if my world falls,
i know he will be there for me.
so yeaa.
stop worrying and hoping something will happen to me.
he could even turn my worse day ever into an enjoyable day.
with my baby around,
life's been great!
i mean REAL GREAT.
love you LOADS!

SCARY MOVIE with potato peeps.
HAA. its stupid. lame. and short.
uhh. JUON is so scary.
i hate his blue face.
heh. I LOVE the arcade.
we ate carls junior.
its really irritating.
qianru and my burger is so "BIG".
cant stand it
and then the 3 of them, they were not sharing.
their burger was like EVEN BIGGER.
i think they know that me and qian ru are sharing.
THEREFORE, they gave us the smallest burger that can be found.
HAH.
what irony.
SO FUNNY.
potato peeps. you all are GREAT!

2006-07-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

my world was once black and sad.
i thought no one will ever care.
it seemed like life was always the same.
nothing special would ever happen again.
when i was at the lowest point of my life,
i thought i would never stand up.
when i was down and out
i thought i was the only one who can make myself smile.
then when you told me you would always be there,
nothing seems to matter anymore.
thanks for always making me smile.
I LOVE you :)

2006-07-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

its really good to stone. really good to dream.
so good to dream that you dont want to stop dreaming.
its like so nice and dreamy.
HAHA. its just a nice feeling.
I never felt so happy before in my life.
I was like almost going to burst into tears.
its just really funny and all.
but seriously, its really nice.
to have someone to cheer you up,
to know someone out there cares for you.
to know you mean something.
to know that you are not all alone in this scary world.
although its just a dream,
I feel like i would be the happiest woman on earth already
HAH. how sweet a human can get.
I NEVER thought anyone could be that sweet.
i cant stop smiling now. =)

2006-07-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

When the daylight is gone
and you are on your own
and you need someone to be around,
there is always me.

I will comfort you
I will take your hand.
I will pull you through,
I will understand.
I will be by your side.
there will be no worries
cos' together we will survive.

when life's standing still
and your soul is confused,
I will guide you.
I will always believe in you.
I wont turn around and leave you.

2006-07-07T01:30:00.000+08:00

what makes your life more interesting?
makes you look forward to everyday?
what makes you feel happy?
feel comforted when you are sad?
what makes you move on in life?
learn how to grow and be glad?
what makes your day everyday?
make you feel like you are special?
they are FRIENDS.
without them,
life wouldnt be the same again.

2006-07-06T22:45:00.000+08:00

have you ever tried sitting in your room alone?
with the lights out?
the curtains closed?
and its raining at the outside?
will there be some kind of feeling you are feeling?
like a lost feeling?
HAHA. its kinda wierd.
in such a situation, its kinda scary but still.
it causes me to think alot about life.
about what i am doing now.
what I did and stuff like that.
If i could turn back time, I wouldnt even let anything like that happen.
oh wells. I guess whats done is already done.
Its a really good lesson learnt.
sometimes life just doesnt go like how you expect it to go.
so what do you do?
do you ever feel so useless that you just want to bury yourself in a hole?
LOL. life is like that.
the weak ones get eliminated and the strong ones are the ones who had gone thru much.
some people use means and ways to climb their way.
some people help and get help from people to climb.
so why are people so different?
why cant everyone just be friendly and help each other?
as days passes by, I realise how ugly the world is.
Indeed there is alot that can be known.
Open up your eyes and look around.
you will be kinda terrified at what kinda measures people take to climb their way.
And getting in their way.
HA. thats it for you.
I dont know.
Look around and observe.
Theres so much to see.
so much to know.
From every day of my life, Im always seeing something new. :)

2006-07-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

AHHH. CANT STAND IT.
LAST 2 MINS, 2 GOALS.
ITALY!! WHY YOU DO THIS TO ME?
I STAYED UP TILL SO LATE TO WATCH SUCH INTERESTING STUFF?!
MAN. MY GERMANY.
AHHH SO DEPRESSING.
GERMANY SEEMS LIKE THEY WERE TIRED AT THE LAST MIN.
AHH. I WAS WAITING TO SEE PENALTY KICKS.
ITS OVER ANYWAY.
I HOPE GERMANY BECOMES THIRD THOUGH.

THIS WORLD CUP IS SO DEPRESSING.
ALL MY FAVS ARE GETTING OUT.
WHATS WITH THE WORLD CUP?
SO BORING.
I WONDER WHO WILL EMERGE AS THE CHAMPION.

2006-07-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

sometimes I just wonder why things can get so wierd.
sometimes i just shouldnt imagine so much.
like i think too much or something.
I do so much without thinking sometimes.
Am i being rash here? HAHA.
uh. Just think and think.

Effie kept pushing me today.
She secretly likes me.
She kept trying to pull my jacket off.
She wants to touch my shoulders.
cant stand it.
SHE JUST LOVES ME SO MUCH RIGHT.
OH MAN. SHE LOVES ME.
SHE ADMITTED TODAY DURING ESS GRA.
oh she was so happy beside me during ess gra today.
and by the way, she couldnt stop smiling throughout the whole lesson.
thats my EFFIE BEFFIE.

haha. stayed back to finish up my brochure.
its horrible okay.!!
The application UNEXPECTEDLY quit.
and i didnt SAVE MY WORK.
OH SO GREAT.
so i had to do all of it again.
OH MAN. can you understand how I felt?
I just wanted to smash the computer.
I took like so LONG to finish it.
IT just took A SECOND to destroy my beautiful piece of work.
oh mans. moral of the story.
SAVE YOUR WORK. ALWAYS DO SO.
COS MAC LAB COMS ARE OLD.
THEY NEED SOME GOOD REPLACING.

2006-07-03T01:06:00.000+08:00

BEAUTY is not just in the eye of the beholder.
TRUTH is in mystic beauty.

Water is a mirror reflecting our mind.
When we have a clear understanding of water,
we will better understand the human body and
even unblock the mystery of why we were born
and exist as we do.
-Doctor Emoto-

what about life today?
hmm. feel so lost.
like nothing to do.
but alot to do.
HAHA. i need to do so much.
i think theres no time.
uh whatever lah.
BRAZIL AND ENGLAND is out.
i wonder who is next.
Im going to miss seeing them kick the ball around.
HAHA. nvm.
i shall wait for four more years.

untangle yourself.
have fun.
be yourself.
find yourself.

2006-07-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAHA should i cry or scream?
why am i always doing the wrong things at the wrong time?
HAHA. one day also not enough to finish.so depressing.
UHHH. did until i even forgot about lunch.
so hardwokring right. CANT STAND IT.
LOL. what a day.
went to have i dont know lunch breakfast or dinner later.
I was very hungry.
my friends kept laughing at me.
do i really eat very slowly?
i mean i dont chew that much what. DO I?
haha. cant swallow my burger.
they kept trying to count how many times i chew.
LAUGH OUT LOUD.
then there was this stray dog that was following us.
HAHAHA. so funny lah.
all of us except sammy was like you know.
hoping the dog will just go away.
haha. went home later.
its really boring. at home. =(

HAHA dear friend, dont be so sad!
maybe they were like angry with themselves too.
HAHA. people always say wrong things.
dont blame yourself ok?
its not your fault.
they will cool down and be fine.
be fine too!
you can call and complain to me!
im free for you!
dont hide it inside you.
if you keep hiding it, then you will lose yourself one day.
im here for you!. SMILE LIKE ME! =)

2006-06-30T01:00:00.000+08:00

EFFIE!! THANKS FOR YOUR GIFT!
YEA ITS THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
SO SWEET OF YOU. HAHA.
thanks to all my friends who have been trying to encourage me.
I feel better now.

cant get any much depressed.
i hope.
I mean how long can I be sad about it?
HAHA. being sad wont change anything will it?
things that are fated to happen will happen.
No matter what you do to avoid them, it will still be like in circles.
you will come back to it again.
life is so short.
i mean a semester is so SHORT.
we are going to seperate soon.
its like TIME FLIES with you guys around.
haha. i am going to be happy and be mad.
Its fun with you guys.
I mean i can really go crazy.
its not like i have to keep quiet and try to be sane.
and when i go crazy no one cares.
so I will have to treasure all of you guys.
(man it sounds so cliche. but who cares.)
and tolerate with your craziness, bullying me and lameness.
AND FIGHT AND WIN YOU 2 GIRLS.
HAHAHA.
its sad.
when you finally fit yourself comfortably, you will realise you need to move on.
UHHH. I wont forget you guys. :)

2006-06-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

BIG FAT F
what else that is better that i can get?
I am just not doing well for everything.
My teacher is like deterring me.
My grades are not making me feel very encouraged either.
WHY? i ask myself.
I cant find the answer too.
I cannot take it anymore.
I tried to supress everything.
Its all spilling non-stop now.
My world is closing up on me.
Sooner or later i will lose myself.
YEA TWO SUBJECTS FOR EXAM ONLY.
AND I SCREWED IT BOTH.
WHAT A HERO I AM.
EVEN MY TEACHER DOESNT THINK IM GOING TO PASS MY PIANO EXAM.
I JUST REALISED I AM GOOD AT NOTHING.

2006-06-29T00:16:00.000+08:00

what kind of losers are all of you?
ganging up to bully someone who is so much smaller than you.
you people always criticise others.
make fun of people.
did u all think of how people will feel?
is it because you all feel lousy inside that you have to take it out on others?
you will only feel good when you tell yourselves you are better than others?
SO SHALLOW.
why dont you try thinking what is wrong with yourself first before criticising others?
bunch of loserss.
especially when you pick on a little girl.
HA. little girl can be a threat to you too.
thats the best part.
why dont you work on bringing your esteem up first?
i know you feel inferior.
YEA. LEARN HOW TO TRUST.
PLEASE BEHAVE PROPERLY.
dont act like kids trying to take revenge on a little girl.
its really childish in case you all need someone to tell you.

2006-06-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

QIANRU! thanks for supporting me!
i feel so encouraged by your words.
dont worry im fine after a good night sleep.
HAHAHA.
thanks for cheering me up!
what you say is true!
HAHA thanks buddy!

will you ever feel wierd sometimes.
like you do things and people dont know what you are doing.
like you try to do something,
but it ended up to be something that is wierd?
hmm. or you try to be nice?
but its like you are crazy?
haha. or did you like ever go crazy and start acting mad?
or do things that you dont even know how to explain?
how good if this world was just me without mistakes.
HAHA.
then if i can read everybody's mind,
i will know what to do at the right time.
for now, i think i still need to learn to read minds.
going by my instinct is the only way out now.
if there was a book that can answer all my questions.
i would have known what to do all the time.
HAHA. sometimes i feel so lousy.
like im always doing wrong things at the wrong time.
saying wrong things at the wrong time.
okay. to put it simply, i feel like a person who doesnt know how to communicate at times.
an insensitve person with a wild imagination.
or maybe its not even may imagination.
maybe its happening in reality.
just that, would i even know?
haha. maybe one day someone will come up and snap at me.
WE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR NONSENSE.
haha. okay thats not funny. just ignore me.

2006-06-27T01:35:00.000+08:00

told you the world is unfair.
haha. why? why? why?
is it really so NOT FAIR?
man. do people always get disappointed when they have been working so hard?
for example the AUSTRALIA vs ITALY match.
its just so unfair.
last min goal.
all because of the referee.
anyhow award to italy.
UHH. SO FUSTRATING.
what a bad day.
i bet ALMOST the whole world is cursing him now.
good luck mr REFEREE.

2006-06-26T20:52:00.000+08:00

have you felt like this before?
like nothing seems to go right,
and your world was suddenly falling apart?
have you ever felt like you were so lost out of sudden,
like you dont fit into the world at all?
have you ever felt like you could just give up on life,
and do whatever you want to do?
have you ever hated so much that you just want to break down?
will you feel like screaming at the walls around you?
cos' you cant seem to get it all right?
its a feeling i just can't describe.

everytime i tell myself its alright,
i think im telling myself a lie.
cos' when another time comes again, its still the same.

i have been lying to myself all the while.
its not going to be alright.
not this time.

another phase marks a new beggining.so is my beginning going to be a dull one?
its just so unfair.
and i really hate it.
are all those just lies?
what is effort?
what is hard work?
it doesnt exist in my dictionary anymore.

im not trying to make the world sound so dark.
but i just cant find the switch in my life.
im always living in the dark trying to find the switch.
no matter how hard i find, no matter how hard i try, i still can't find it.
and there is like a jeering crowd with you and another crowd trying to encourage you.
problem is its hard to encourage. easy to bring someone down.
i proved myself wrong already.
its really hard to influence my own thinking.
reality has made the thinking sink in.
anyway i will try to be happy.
its the most i can do for the cheering crowd.

2006-06-26T01:16:00.000+08:00

DAVID BECKHAM SCORED A GOAL.
HE JUST TOTALLY ROCKS.
SOOOOO COOL.
NICE GOAL! HAHAHAHA.

uh wells.
sometimes its just best to ignore this kinda people.
its bcos they feel threatened thats why they have to make such horrible comments about you.
if not i dont see a need..
like what kinda horrble comments can they give to a person they barely know?
oh yes. maybe they do.
only if they feel like they need to berate him/her to prove that they are right.
and the people who believed them are as good as BLIND.
what a character they have.
some people are just irritating.
they ignore you for no reason.
so are you supposed to BEG them to talk to you?
BEG them to go out with you?
BEG them to be friends with you?
haha. well. NO.
not worth it at all.
cos they dont even have the intention of being your friend.
its good that they eliminated themselves.
rather than you do it one by one.
its a blessing in disguise isn't it?!

okay. so if you are tired, just go to God.

YOU ARE NOT WHAT YOU THINK YOU ARE
YOU ARE NOT WHAT I THINK YOU ARE
YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK I THINK YOU ARE.

2006-06-24T21:32:00.000+08:00

I AM SOOOOO TIRED.
so much to think of.

you once thought i was the fool.
i wonder who is the fool now.
cant seem to escape her clutches right?
yes. i know its a fact.
i have already come to terms to it.
to sum it all, you are just like me.
so why do you even want to say so much about me?
aren't you human too?
HAH. to think this day would come.
you thought i was unfair.
so are you being really fair now?
i dont know how to ever talk to you again.
why does it always happen this way?
i really give up this time.
you always think im zilch to you.
but do you even think i want to be anything to you?
HAH. CHECK THIS OUT - not anymore.

what a disappointing outing.
i feel like crying too.
im really lost in this vision.
dont feel anything like part of it.
so why am i in it when im not part of it?
sometimes why do i just have to do things as it is?
cant i do things my own way?
yea. i guess its the way the world works.
its just a bloodcurdling world out there.
you can never reside in your lala land for long.

UH. im just going to breakdown one day for nothing.
all because of all this absurd stuff.
but in the first place..
are those worth even a drop of my tear?

2006-06-23T02:44:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!
so infuriating!
everything just at the wrong time.
MAN!
$#&*#@^*(*^!%@#
uh cant take it!!
senseless people do senseless things.
i feel so fustrated.
AHHHHH
why is everyone so agaisnt me?!
laughter turning out to tears and anger.
oh wells.
TIME OUT.